27 Jan Change of pace…secrets…and distractions.
As you all know I am desperately looking for a job…as are a million other people in America. Tonight, I would like to send out a HUGE hug and apology to all of those who were previously employed and got laid off and those who never had a job to start with. I am unable to imagine what this must feel like for those who have been the ‘big shots’ of major companies or people who found their purpose in caring and loving on others…I am deeply sorry. My prayer for all is that, the doors open where they are supposed to and you find (or rediscover) something you love to do.
I discovered today that your body’s pace can simply change. Let me explain…for the past 3 1/2 years I have been a full-time student with at least 2 part-time jobs! Don’t be fooled, I was a great student, I studied, went to all my classes, and made good grades…and even squeezed in time for friends. Sound busy? It was great! I loved every moment of it. Today was a different story. I went to bed around 12:30…after no major events of the day. When my alarm clock sounded at 8:30 am I could not find the energy to get out of bed. (And I was supposed to be going to my beloved ZUMBA with my lovely ladies at Fusion! …I miss Zumba!) But my body ached, as did my head…so alarm reset for 9:30 am. Do you think that was better? Nope, I was still unable to make it to an awake and conscious state until 10:15am! This is virtually unheard of in my world on a Tuesday! The worse part of it all…I didn’t have anything to do even when I did get up…so season 7 of Friends here I came! And there I stayed. For the large portion of the day. The beauty of it all was that…I didn’t feel guilty. I allowed myself to do it, which is a very new thing for me. But no worries, it shan’t become a regular thing. That is impossible, but it was nice for a day. What does Thursday’s agenda hold? An interview with Focus Counseling and a photo shoot with the adorable Taft girls! Yay! Praying for less wind and more warmth tomorrow!
I was planning on telling you all about my wonderful weekend that began with some Sips N Strokes with the wonderful Erin Paige, but yesterday my mind was elsewhere. Truth is if I had written everything I was thinking yesterday you wouldn’t have liked it. I discovered a few secrets about people I hold very dear and it was a little unpleasant. The unpleasant part wasn’t so much the secrets, but more the fact that everyone has the ability to keep secrets that slapped me in the face once again. Now, this isn’t a realization that I first came to yesterday…it simply resurfaced. For those of you that don’t know…I detest secrets. Although, I will say that I have learned detesting secrets doesn’t really make them any less common among the people around you, just more secretive. So…the good news is? Is there any good news?
Well, I didn’t really think so, because who really likes knowing that everyone you love and share this life with can keep things hidden from you? If your answer is no one, then you’d be correct. BUT…I think there is a bright side. First of all, allow me to point out (not really for anyone’s benefit other than my own) that you will never be able to know everything about everyone. And furthermore…you probably don’t want to. But for the things that you do need to know, the good news is is that there is a God that no one around you can keep secrets from and he knows, whether you like it or not. I think that is pretty amazing. Also, incredibly scary when you think about it. The God of the universe knows everything you (and I) have ever thought, said, done, dreamed, seen and more…so we can’t get away with anything. The true silver lining is that we don’t have to try to pull the cover over his eyes anyways…there is no fooling Him. But with his almighty judgment also comes almighty grace. Woah. So I would just like to say thank you, God.
Lastly, remember all that responsibility talk I had going on last week…well don’t worry, I haven’t forgotten. But I’m still not going there tonight as I feel I have already rambled and preached a little too much tonight so I leave you with this passage that really struck my heart last night…
“Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law. The commandments, “Do not commit adultery,” Do not murder,” Do not steal,” Do no covet,” and whatever other commandment there may be are summed up in this one rule: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” Love does no harm to its neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law.” -Romans 13:8-10
Now this may not mean anything to you and you may think it has no relation to anything I have said above, but it seemed very true and real to me last night so I thought I’d share. And also because ‘neighbor’ is not simply the folks living in the house you’ve been ignoring for the past X amount of years…it is each and every person you know…your family, friends, random extended relatives, co-workers, true neighbors…soI think it is important. 
So, thanks for listening…or reading my crazy antics for the night. Hope you have a bright morning!
xxxoo -impractical dreaming.
Ps. For those of you wondering what Sips N Strokes is you can A) visit their website at www.sipsnstrokes.com and B) check out photos of Erin and I on my facebook!
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